Tuesday, April 14, 2009
fuck this @ 4:43 PM
I know I haven't written in forever.
My house got broken into. Everything stolen. I moved To Atlanta to live with my family and had to pack up the last four years of my life into three bags and leave everything else behind. Not that I had much else after the robbery. Mostly all I brought was clothes... some books. Really all I have left anymore.
I went to a residential detox for a week. I've been clean off of meth for two weeks now. I'm having to start my life over... from scratch.
I have nothing anymore, really. It depresses me more than anything. I know they're just material things, but I worked my ass off for all of my shit. Thousands of dollars of electronics equipment I was proud of.
Not to mention 10 years of memories backed up on two computers, an external hard drives, & CDs... all gone.
I fucking hate people.
I think it was my friend and her boyfriend. There were too many coincidences for it to actually be one. Way way too many. So fuck her, fuck him. They both are out on bail for drug charges anyway, and the kharma for this will kick them in the ass hardcore. Prison time, anyone? You won't get off... trust me. Not after this.
I don't understand it. I do everything right by people. I don't talk shit, I don't start drama, I'm so anti social so I don't ever fuck with anyone... and the people that are my friends I'll do anything to help them.
So why?
Fuck all of this. I'm still so mad about it. I havent really cried about it. It's been two weeks and I still cant believe it's real.
Stupid, huh? I've left everything I've known for the last four years and moved to another freaking STATE. And I cant find the realism yet?
No, I can't.
I can't strip anymore either. Drugs... everywhere. What else can I do? I'm not qualified for anything other than being a complete slut.
I'm on happy pills now.
I forgot to take mine this morning. I just remembered. Damnit. I always do that.
See, this is why I didn't want to write. This blog releases all my self hate and anger towards the whole situation. I just....
Fuck this.
