Wednesday, June 17, 2009
virginity @ 8:04 PM
I was supposed to call the gas company today – I forgot.
This is the third gas company that has rejected me. THE THIRD. This is ridiculous, I know my credit isn’t good, but it isn’t HORRIBLE either. Plus, I NEED gas up in this bitch, how the hell am I going to get it if no one wants to service me? (yes I realize how dirty that sounded) But I’m serious, can’t I just pay a fucking deposit or something?
My apartment is so empty. It echoes and stuff. I kind of just chill out on my bedroom – it’s the only place that actually had furniture. One thing: my bed. On the floor. Pathetic, really.
I was supposed to the look for a job today, but I got myself all worked up because I couldn’t find anywhere to buy or download “The Summer of my Deflowering” (a short film Beth Riesgraf was in). And I know it’s retarded to get all pissed off about it, but I’m just so sick of everything being difficult with her. It’s like nothing she’s ever done is easy to find. Anyway, I got so angry I took a nap to calm myself down – otherwise I was on the verge of throwing things. I’m lame, but still.
I finally found clips of it, though. On Rapidshare, so obviously the only ones that were on there was her naked scenes. But it frustrated me even more because number one: her character is so cute in the movie! It made me really want to watch it. It made me go aww, cause seriously, she’s all sweet and virginal lol. And number two: I can’t make screencaps of her topless. Which, I guess yes I could, but I just don’t. Like on my Hudson website, naked/topless photos are excluded. I know she was in a movie with it, but personally I think a movie is one thing – having your tits float around the internet is quite another. Which I know is dumb since I have my tits and god knows whatever else on here, but that’s different cause that was my decision.
Plus, those photos are always the ones that have the most views, take my website for example. All anyone cares about are tits, and I’d rather have people come to the website because of her acting and not because of her body.
I also want to watch “Married, Unmarried” with Gina Bellman, due to the fact that it looks so fucked up. Seen the naked clips of her in that (from, you guessed it, RapidShare – a place for soft core porn), but I don’t want to buy the movie. Rather just torrent it. Something that seems that incredibly screwed off I think I might only want to watch once.
( Beth from 'The Summer of my Deflowering' )But I fucking want “The Summer of my Deflowering” bad. Damnit. I was all jealous of Megan, Beth’s character, because her first time was so NICE. I was like damn, why couldn’t mind have been like that? I ran away from home and then fucked my friends boyfriend.
Yeah, I was a bitch. I was fourteen, give me a break. Moral standing was something I hadn’t learned yet.
My first time was a girl was crappy too.
I probably should have waited until I was dating someone seriously, but all of my friends had lost their virginity already to all of their boyfriends, and I just wanted to get rid of mine. I regret that, a lot.
Labels: gas companies, job, virginity
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
virginity @ 8:04 PM
I was supposed to call the gas company today – I forgot.
This is the third gas company that has rejected me. THE THIRD. This is ridiculous, I know my credit isn’t good, but it isn’t HORRIBLE either. Plus, I NEED gas up in this bitch, how the hell am I going to get it if no one wants to service me? (yes I realize how dirty that sounded) But I’m serious, can’t I just pay a fucking deposit or something?
My apartment is so empty. It echoes and stuff. I kind of just chill out on my bedroom – it’s the only place that actually had furniture. One thing: my bed. On the floor. Pathetic, really.
I was supposed to the look for a job today, but I got myself all worked up because I couldn’t find anywhere to buy or download “The Summer of my Deflowering” (a short film Beth Riesgraf was in). And I know it’s retarded to get all pissed off about it, but I’m just so sick of everything being difficult with her. It’s like nothing she’s ever done is easy to find. Anyway, I got so angry I took a nap to calm myself down – otherwise I was on the verge of throwing things. I’m lame, but still.
I finally found clips of it, though. On Rapidshare, so obviously the only ones that were on there was her naked scenes. But it frustrated me even more because number one: her character is so cute in the movie! It made me really want to watch it. It made me go aww, cause seriously, she’s all sweet and virginal lol. And number two: I can’t make screencaps of her topless. Which, I guess yes I could, but I just don’t. Like on my Hudson website, naked/topless photos are excluded. I know she was in a movie with it, but personally I think a movie is one thing – having your tits float around the internet is quite another. Which I know is dumb since I have my tits and god knows whatever else on here, but that’s different cause that was my decision.
Plus, those photos are always the ones that have the most views, take my website for example. All anyone cares about are tits, and I’d rather have people come to the website because of her acting and not because of her body.
I also want to watch “Married, Unmarried” with Gina Bellman, due to the fact that it looks so fucked up. Seen the naked clips of her in that (from, you guessed it, RapidShare – a place for soft core porn), but I don’t want to buy the movie. Rather just torrent it. Something that seems that incredibly screwed off I think I might only want to watch once.
( Beth from 'The Summer of my Deflowering' ) But I fucking want “The Summer of my Deflowering” bad. Damnit. I was all jealous of Megan, Beth’s character, because her first time was so NICE. I was like damn, why couldn’t mind have been like that? I ran away from home and then fucked my friends boyfriend.
Yeah, I was a bitch. I was fourteen, give me a break. Moral standing was something I hadn’t learned yet.
My first time was a girl was crappy too.
I probably should have waited until I was dating someone seriously, but all of my friends had lost their virginity already to all of their boyfriends, and I just wanted to get rid of mine. I regret that, a lot.
Labels: gas companies, job, virginity
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