Sunday, March 01, 2009
@ 12:47 AM
I think its funny how this time I asked for help and no one came.
I think its funny how my beauty is only a cover for the rotten corpse underneath.
I think its funny how I degrade myself for a living.
I think its funny how easy this all is.
I think its funny how people think that when I get like this its due to drugs.
I think its funny how people think I go a whole day without hearing them in my head.
I think its funny how easily people are fooled by a facade.
I think its funny how hard I try to be normal and all I am is a mentally unstable individual.
I think its funny how I spend my life obsessed with fantasy to get away from reality.
I think its funny that I thought I had so much to offer.
I think its funny how I waste my mind.
I think its funny that I'm bleeding.
I think its funny how I can get so high then fly away right now.
I think its funny how bad I want to mutilate my own face cause its all tied to the lies.
LIES. LIES. LIES.
I'm beautiful, right?
BEAUTY.
All about how I look.
I'm sick of how I look.
Are ugly people happy? Cause pretty people arent.
You all think we're blessed. you stupid fucking idiots.
Pretty people are nothing inside. We might have something sure, underneath. But does anyone care about that?
No.
YOUR BEAUTIFUL
YOUR SO HOT
YOUR SO SEXY
I WANNA FUCK YOU
I hate sex
I hate love
I hate human interaction
This is why I stay at home
a hermit.
On my fucking computer.
The people online, when you write... when you can take something from your mind and weave this beautiful story....
THEY dont care about how you look.
When you can make websites
graphics
Fan videos
THEY DONT SEE YOUR FACE.
They see your mind
your creativity
Not your tits
Not your fucking pussy
I find it funny how people dont understand why I dont have a girlfriend
BUT YOUR SO PRETTY
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS BEAUTY
NOTHING
You stupid fucking cunts
I dont wanna be pretty anymore
I dont even wanna be here anymore
I wanna fall asleep
I got tortured last night in my dreams
who the fuck has dreams like that
LEGITIMATE HUMAN TORTURE
Ive never woken up so scared in my life
someone take me away
take me away from all of this
I dont wanna take myself away
this is when i wish I had friends
when I wish I could be normal
talk to people
go out
have friends
people that care
when you lock yourself in a tower... it takes forever for someone to realize your gone.
