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The lameness of me is unsurpassed, really.

I’ve been trying to find a way to get in touch with Beth Riesgraf for what has it been now? Five, six months? I’m not sure, but it’s been awhile. I have tried EVERYTHING, and when I mean everything I mean fucking everything, people. And yesterday? She joins Twitter. And it’s not a fake… it’s her.

And now I don’t know what to say to her.

HA. Ridiculous, right? I think so too.

My problem is this: Twitter is public. I don’t want to @reply her and do it that way. Everyone sees that and I’m just… I don’t know, private, I guess. And I can’t DM her because she doesn’t follow me.

Even if I could DM her, 140 characters doesn’t help me much. I can’t make my case that I’m not a psycho in less than 140 characters LOL. You all think I’m joking, but I’m not. Trust me, I can look at it from the outside. I can put myself in her position and pretend someone made a whole YouTube channel about my character, made a fansite for me… etc etc and so on and so forth. I know how that looks from the outside, I’m not stupid. Especially since this is really her first big public gig and the whole fandom thing is probably very new to her.

So yeah, would have to make my case that I’m not a psychopath. I’m just really antisocial, bored, creative, and I enjoy her work as both and actress and a photographer. And I do really want her help maybe possibly a bit behind the scenes with the website, or something on TwentyPoundsOfCrazy, or I don’t know… something of that nature, and I don’t want to screw it up.

So. Yeah. Anyway, I don’t even know if she knows me by Sapphire Smoke anyway, and knows that’s me following her on Twitter. While I’m sure she knows OF me, have no clue if she knows my internet name. So while I can wait around and hope she contacts ME, that’s… doubtful.

So what to do, what to do? Knowing me… nothing for awhile. I’ll sit here and try to figure out some master plan and in the end… fail. Ha.

I’ve never really had an opportunity like this before. While I did for a long time run a fan website about Hudson Leick, I never talked to her about it. Whenever I saw it was in a yoga environment, and that’s just not the place for fandom stuff, you know? So I just left it alone.

Well… we’ll see how this goes. Something is bound to happen at some point, one way or the other. Either she’ll contact me, or I’ll attempt to contact her over Twitter and either be successful or fail miserably.

I think it’s the failing miserably part that makes me not want to fuck with anything. It’s one thing to know you might have a chance for a really cool opportunity like this, another to know it’ll never happen. That would suck, but it’ll be what it is in the end, right?

So… we’ll see how this goes.

Labels: beth riesgraf, twitter

The lameness of me is unsurpassed, really.

I’ve been trying to find a way to get in touch with Beth Riesgraf for what has it been now? Five, six months? I’m not sure, but it’s been awhile. I have tried EVERYTHING, and when I mean everything I mean fucking everything, people. And yesterday? She joins Twitter. And it’s not a fake… it’s her.

And now I don’t know what to say to her.

HA. Ridiculous, right? I think so too.

My problem is this: Twitter is public. I don’t want to @reply her and do it that way. Everyone sees that and I’m just… I don’t know, private, I guess. And I can’t DM her because she doesn’t follow me.

Even if I could DM her, 140 characters doesn’t help me much. I can’t make my case that I’m not a psycho in less than 140 characters LOL. You all think I’m joking, but I’m not. Trust me, I can look at it from the outside. I can put myself in her position and pretend someone made a whole YouTube channel about my character, made a fansite for me… etc etc and so on and so forth. I know how that looks from the outside, I’m not stupid. Especially since this is really her first big public gig and the whole fandom thing is probably very new to her.

So yeah, would have to make my case that I’m not a psychopath. I’m just really antisocial, bored, creative, and I enjoy her work as both and actress and a photographer. And I do really want her help maybe possibly a bit behind the scenes with the website, or something on TwentyPoundsOfCrazy, or I don’t know… something of that nature, and I don’t want to screw it up.

So. Yeah. Anyway, I don’t even know if she knows me by Sapphire Smoke anyway, and knows that’s me following her on Twitter. While I’m sure she knows OF me, have no clue if she knows my internet name. So while I can wait around and hope she contacts ME, that’s… doubtful.

So what to do, what to do? Knowing me… nothing for awhile. I’ll sit here and try to figure out some master plan and in the end… fail. Ha.

I’ve never really had an opportunity like this before. While I did for a long time run a fan website about Hudson Leick, I never talked to her about it. Whenever I saw it was in a yoga environment, and that’s just not the place for fandom stuff, you know? So I just left it alone.

Well… we’ll see how this goes. Something is bound to happen at some point, one way or the other. Either she’ll contact me, or I’ll attempt to contact her over Twitter and either be successful or fail miserably.

I think it’s the failing miserably part that makes me not want to fuck with anything. It’s one thing to know you might have a chance for a really cool opportunity like this, another to know it’ll never happen. That would suck, but it’ll be what it is in the end, right?

So… we’ll see how this goes.

Labels: beth riesgraf, twitter

My name is Mary. I'm a 24 year old creative mess. I like to tell stories in anyway that I can, though mostly through visual artwork. I enjoy film editing, writing, modeling, photography, dancing, and website design. I'm a lesbian. I'm bipolar. I'm stronger than I usually give myself credit for. I'm a recovering drug addict. I'm passionate as all hell. I'm a beautiful disaster. I want to be free. I want to fly.

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