Thursday, April 08, 2010
I like it @ 1:39 AM
There’s always a lot of smiley faces in her messages and sometimes I wonder if it’s to overcompensate for the fact that taking to me has got to be a little weird for her, but she doesn’t want me to know that.
“Take care of you yourself.” Always one of those at the end. Sometimes I wonder how much she knows and how much of a picture she’s been painted at how broken I really am. I don’t ask because part of me doesn’t want to know.
Light; I try to keep it light with her. Be normal. I think I over think the whole being normal thing though so it feels a little awkward. Maybe I’ll get used to it. It’s different with her than it is with him.
With him it’s natural and it’s light because it’s easy, not because I over think things like a moron. I can’t remember if I did when it first started, but probably seeing the situation. I think I just got used to it so I guess I got to get used to her too.
I think that goes both ways though.
It’s still different though. I like it, like both of it; maybe it makes me feel less like the freak I assume everyone thinks I am because of how passionately I throw myself into things.
But I like that some people find me normal enough to talk to and can blur the line just a little bit that most people have to stand so firmly on the other side of.
I like it.
Thursday, April 08, 2010
I like it @ 1:39 AM
There’s always a lot of smiley faces in her messages and sometimes I wonder if it’s to overcompensate for the fact that taking to me has got to be a little weird for her, but she doesn’t want me to know that.
“Take care of you yourself.” Always one of those at the end. Sometimes I wonder how much she knows and how much of a picture she’s been painted at how broken I really am. I don’t ask because part of me doesn’t want to know.
Light; I try to keep it light with her. Be normal. I think I over think the whole being normal thing though so it feels a little awkward. Maybe I’ll get used to it. It’s different with her than it is with him.
With him it’s natural and it’s light because it’s easy, not because I over think things like a moron. I can’t remember if I did when it first started, but probably seeing the situation. I think I just got used to it so I guess I got to get used to her too.
I think that goes both ways though.
It’s still different though. I like it, like both of it; maybe it makes me feel less like the freak I assume everyone thinks I am because of how passionately I throw myself into things.
But I like that some people find me normal enough to talk to and can blur the line just a little bit that most people have to stand so firmly on the other side of.
I like it.
i my me mine.
you think you know me yeah ?
My name is Mary. I'm a 24 year old creative mess. I like to tell stories in anyway that I can, though mostly through visual artwork. I enjoy film editing, writing, modeling, photography, dancing, and website design. I'm a lesbian. I'm bipolar. I'm stronger than I usually give myself credit for. I'm a recovering drug addict. I'm passionate as all hell. I'm a beautiful disaster. I want to be free. I want to
fly.
credits.
