Saturday, August 14, 2010
Welcome to the death of my Leverage obsession @ 5:36 AM
You know, I knew this would start happening sooner or later. If I’m to be completely honest, I really thought it would be much sooner than this. Much more of a natural decrease too, or maybe a rapid switch due to other interests or something, rather than this all happening because of what happened with… well, someone specific.
But all good things come to an end eventually, right? This has happened a lot with me because of my Bipolar disorder so I’m hardly surprised by it.
Though I
am surprised that this is starting to die out a lot slower than I would have thought, at least due to the circumstances, anyway. Leverage had a real strong hold on me for a long time, that’s for sure. It ain’t going without a fight :P
But it’s beginning not to matter much anymore.
Now, okay, let me be clear: my obsession dying out doesn’t mean I don’t love the show anymore. I’m still gonna watch it every Sunday night without fail. I’m still gonna get my ass to Con-Con next year. I’m still gonna squee over the awesome that is Parker. But when my obsession dies, a lot of things go away.
Fanfic. Fan videos. Graphics. My Beth website (which is already dead, to be fair. RIP). I have no need to read interviews or see behind the scenes videos. You know how much I’ve been missing lately? A lot, and yet I have no desire to go back and look at these things. I just… don’t find that I care much about those types of things anymore. Hell, you wanna know something sad? I know every single name of every episode in seasons one and two and know what happened in each (and some of them can quote the entire episode through). You ask about season three? I’m kinds of screwed on that front. You know I had to go
look up the name of the episode the other day where Parker talks about pretzels? Yeah. Bad. Why I know this shit is dying out. I’ve also only watched every episode in season three one time, besides maybe two or three which I’ve seen twice.
And you know what’s messed up more than all that? I was supposed to extra on the series finale of Leverage, but due to some circumstances with people getting sick and whatnot, that didn’t happen. And… I’m not really disappointed. I was just kind of like, “Oh well.” I’m really kind of indifferent about it. Yeah, it would have been cool, but it’s not a huge let down that it didn’t happen.
On a side note: how ironic is it that this happened just as I move to Portland? LolI can’t help but miss it though. I still kind of miss all my past obsessions on some level. My brief stint of YouTube fame where I was a vlogging QUEEN, my Harry Potter one a lot (or more specifically, hexrpg.com), Xena, Buffy and Faith. I do miss them all. I’m starting to miss Leverage already. I’m also starting to miss Beth. Or, I guess, loving her in the way I used to. I still support her, but not like how it was.
I’m glad I’m getting heavily into Doctor Who though (or more specifically, River Song and the actress that plays her, Alex Kingston), because it’s the times that I
don’t have something to obsess over that I feel kind of lost. So this came at a really good time for me.
It sucks though. I still hear songs and think “Oh, this will make a great Leverage/Parker/other character video!” and yet… I don’t do it. I have fic left unfinished. Hell, I guess that’s a welcome to the loss of my Buffy/Faith obsession world too though. People are still badgering me to finish those and fuck knows when I will.
That’s not to say that Leverage won’t come back. Sometimes they do, but it’s never like how it was at first. Just brief stints in between loving other things.
But yeah… I realized lately that this is actually the death of my Leverage obsession. I feel kind of sad about it, but it’s not like I can change it.
Welcome to the life of being Bipolar.
Labels: doctor who, leverage, obsessions
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Welcome to the death of my Leverage obsession @ 5:36 AM
You know, I knew this would start happening sooner or later. If I’m to be completely honest, I really thought it would be much sooner than this. Much more of a natural decrease too, or maybe a rapid switch due to other interests or something, rather than this all happening because of what happened with… well, someone specific.
But all good things come to an end eventually, right? This has happened a lot with me because of my Bipolar disorder so I’m hardly surprised by it.
Though I
am surprised that this is starting to die out a lot slower than I would have thought, at least due to the circumstances, anyway. Leverage had a real strong hold on me for a long time, that’s for sure. It ain’t going without a fight :P
But it’s beginning not to matter much anymore.
Now, okay, let me be clear: my obsession dying out doesn’t mean I don’t love the show anymore. I’m still gonna watch it every Sunday night without fail. I’m still gonna get my ass to Con-Con next year. I’m still gonna squee over the awesome that is Parker. But when my obsession dies, a lot of things go away.
Fanfic. Fan videos. Graphics. My Beth website (which is already dead, to be fair. RIP). I have no need to read interviews or see behind the scenes videos. You know how much I’ve been missing lately? A lot, and yet I have no desire to go back and look at these things. I just… don’t find that I care much about those types of things anymore. Hell, you wanna know something sad? I know every single name of every episode in seasons one and two and know what happened in each (and some of them can quote the entire episode through). You ask about season three? I’m kinds of screwed on that front. You know I had to go
look up the name of the episode the other day where Parker talks about pretzels? Yeah. Bad. Why I know this shit is dying out. I’ve also only watched every episode in season three one time, besides maybe two or three which I’ve seen twice.
And you know what’s messed up more than all that? I was supposed to extra on the series finale of Leverage, but due to some circumstances with people getting sick and whatnot, that didn’t happen. And… I’m not really disappointed. I was just kind of like, “Oh well.” I’m really kind of indifferent about it. Yeah, it would have been cool, but it’s not a huge let down that it didn’t happen.
On a side note: how ironic is it that this happened just as I move to Portland? LolI can’t help but miss it though. I still kind of miss all my past obsessions on some level. My brief stint of YouTube fame where I was a vlogging QUEEN, my Harry Potter one a lot (or more specifically, hexrpg.com), Xena, Buffy and Faith. I do miss them all. I’m starting to miss Leverage already. I’m also starting to miss Beth. Or, I guess, loving her in the way I used to. I still support her, but not like how it was.
I’m glad I’m getting heavily into Doctor Who though (or more specifically, River Song and the actress that plays her, Alex Kingston), because it’s the times that I
don’t have something to obsess over that I feel kind of lost. So this came at a really good time for me.
It sucks though. I still hear songs and think “Oh, this will make a great Leverage/Parker/other character video!” and yet… I don’t do it. I have fic left unfinished. Hell, I guess that’s a welcome to the loss of my Buffy/Faith obsession world too though. People are still badgering me to finish those and fuck knows when I will.
That’s not to say that Leverage won’t come back. Sometimes they do, but it’s never like how it was at first. Just brief stints in between loving other things.
But yeah… I realized lately that this is actually the death of my Leverage obsession. I feel kind of sad about it, but it’s not like I can change it.
Welcome to the life of being Bipolar.
Labels: doctor who, leverage, obsessions
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