Saturday, September 26, 2009
Work and whatever else @ 2:44 PM
My life really is like waking up to the same boring day over and over again.
Even when I switch it up, and actually get my lazy ass into work, it’s still the same shit every day. I drink too much, I bond with at least one nerd, I get asked to go home with someone at least twice, I’ll get shown an obscene body part on a cell phone, and I’ll be asked how much I charge for sex. It’s the same shit, over and over and over again.
I’m really sick of it.
Mainly, I’m sick of acting like I actually give a shit about any of these people who are giving me money. Because I don’t. I don’t know them, so why should I pretend like I do?
I’ve gotten bored with sexual manipulation. It’s too easy.
I used to do this because I found people interesting. And while yes, I have met some interesting people in this line of work; I’ve come to the conclusion that unfortunately, most people are the same. Nothing surprises me anymore, or maybe just because I’ve heard it all.
I’m also sick of showing my cunt to everyone willing to look. Which, lets face it, is a startling amount of people.
Moving on, though.
As for the whole Scientology thing, and everyone via here and Twitter and wherever else who are asking me if I still consider it a religion, the answer is yes. It is classified as such, and everyone has a right to believe what they want to believe. Frankly, you could dress up a goat in a damn skirt and call it your divine being, and I really couldn’t give a shit.
We all are instilled with free will, and everyone has the right to exercise that.
On a random note: Parker’s sexuality is in my hands. Don’t ask. It just makes me laugh, and quite possible be a bit ‘grr’ cause that’s just a sad reward/punishment system. Or should I say, it’s sad that I take it as such. Maybe.
But it worked. Damnit.
And I’m also really lonely. I came to that startling conclusion during my bipolar hung over spaz I had on Thursday. I also came to the conclusion that I dive into Leverage, and my Beth website, and whatever else… fanfiction and crap, due to that. To make me seem less lonely.
How ridiculous.
It’s also fucking pouring today, and normally that means I wouldn’t go to work, but I need to make rent. Jeez. Ruin my happy moment. I love being home when it’s raining. Listening to it.
But whatever.
Labels: leverage, parker, stripping, work sucks
