Sunday, September 27, 2009
Work, Beth, just stuff. @ 1:02 PM
Last night at work I cam to the
startling conclusion that part of me enjoys being violated by strangers.
Yeah, I know how fucked up that is, trust me.
So that kind of makes me a bit depressed on who I am as a person, and how epicly screwed up my sexuality is, and how I view myself. Apparently, somewhere deep down I think I deserve being treated like a worthless whore.
Oh, my self esteem is wonderful, don’t you think?
I can’t wait until I don’t have to do this shit anymore. I can’t wait until I’m somewhat a functional member of this society. I can’t wait until I can wake up and not
hate myself.
On a happier note however, because I think we all need one of those, Beth (Riesgraf, for those of you who live under a rock and don’t know my Beth!Love by now) agreed to do an interview with me via email for my website.
*this is the part where I do my little happy dance*
Apparently, badgering does pay off. Aha. Or maybe my determination, and my hope that she’s willing to give me a chance to not
just be that fangirl that spams the internet with her presence in this world.
Which, I guess she is. So I’m very happy about that.
… That’s all. For now.
Labels: beth riesgraf, stripping, work
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Work, Beth, just stuff. @ 1:02 PM
Last night at work I cam to the
startling conclusion that part of me enjoys being violated by strangers.
Yeah, I know how fucked up that is, trust me.
So that kind of makes me a bit depressed on who I am as a person, and how epicly screwed up my sexuality is, and how I view myself. Apparently, somewhere deep down I think I deserve being treated like a worthless whore.
Oh, my self esteem is wonderful, don’t you think?
I can’t wait until I don’t have to do this shit anymore. I can’t wait until I’m somewhat a functional member of this society. I can’t wait until I can wake up and not
hate myself.
On a happier note however, because I think we all need one of those, Beth (Riesgraf, for those of you who live under a rock and don’t know my Beth!Love by now) agreed to do an interview with me via email for my website.
*this is the part where I do my little happy dance*
Apparently, badgering does pay off. Aha. Or maybe my determination, and my hope that she’s willing to give me a chance to not
just be that fangirl that spams the internet with her presence in this world.
Which, I guess she is. So I’m very happy about that.
… That’s all. For now.
Labels: beth riesgraf, stripping, work
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you think you know me yeah ?
My name is Mary. I'm a 24 year old creative mess. I like to tell stories in anyway that I can, though mostly through visual artwork. I enjoy film editing, writing, modeling, photography, dancing, and website design. I'm a lesbian. I'm bipolar. I'm stronger than I usually give myself credit for. I'm a recovering drug addict. I'm passionate as all hell. I'm a beautiful disaster. I want to be free. I want to
fly.
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